Bummer dr appt

I had my dr appt today and i'm so bummed. We had to meet with the CNS for an hour before we got to see the midwife. We did this same thing with the other two pregnancies. It was a little different this time since she was talking a little bit more about a twin pregnancy and the differences I will experience. Some of the "uplifting" news I got...I need to gain 24 lbs by week 24 (End of July), they say that a strong weight gain during the first 24 weeks helps to bring up twin birth weights. Here's to pigging out on healthy stuff as soon as this darn nausea goes away! Also the issues that women have with a singleton pregnancy at 9 months, I will get to experience starting around 5-6 months! I should expect to be as big as I was when I delivered Evan somewhere in July/August! Holy Moly i'm gonna be HUGE! My total weight gain should be around 50-60 lbs. I'm going to look like a freaking oompa-loompa! Here's to thinking about a New Years resolution to lose weight....Matt might need to buy me a gym membership for Christmas!! I'm worried about gaining all that weight but I will do it if it means having healthy babies! My goal is to have 2 6lb babies vaginally! We talked about the chances of having a vaginal delivery and they said with my history of bigger babies, I have about a 70% chance! I was happy to hear that. They said that if one baby is head down and the other is either head down or breech, that they will try to deliver me vaginally. There are dr's there that specialize in breech deliveries so it's up to me! I have a lot of time to think about that. My concern would be that I would deliver one vaginally and then the other wouldn't come out and would have to recover from BOTH a c-section AND a vaginal delivery! No thanks! I'm considering having someone other than Matt in the delivery room if I go vaginally to help out, it's going to seem like chaos and I want someone there to help take pictures and help me push the second one out if Matt needs to be with the first one! Again, lots of time to think about that. Now on to the bummer part of the appointment. They talked a lot about things that i'm going to need to do during the pregnancy, like sooo many more appointments, and different ultrasounds and NST's and perinatologist appointments and things...so that made me think that I would be back in soon to hear the babies heartbeats...NO! I have to wait until the 22nd! I'm so bummed. I just want to hear their hearbeats and make sure everyone is ok in there! The midwife said that this is the last time that there will be that much space between appointments and that in a few months I will be wishing that I didn't have to go every week! I know that is true, it's just hard since I can't feel the babies moving yet and have no way to gauge that they are ok. kwim ? Ok, I better go now....We're going to my Mom's for dinner and to just get the kids out of the house. I will probably be posting more later in my other blog about our car issues....Uggg...Minivan here we come. *notice the reluctance in my voice*.......

8 weeks

I'm 8 weeks preggo today. I have a dr appointment on Wed that i'm not really looking forward to since it's just with the regular ob and not with my peri. I can't wait for another ultrasound. I want to see the two little beans again. And now they should look a little more like babies and a little less blob-like!

I've been having a lot of cramping these last two days. I think that it's just stetching and pulling more than anything, at least that's what I keep telling myself. Nothing much else to report except that i'm already looking exceptionally plump! Grrreat.....You're "required" to gain more weight with twins.....I'm not looking forward to what i'm going to look like....Matt may need to start working some OT to pay for my tummy tuck and boob job! lol

research and scary facts

I have been trying to avoid the internet and horror stories about twin pregnancies but they found me. I was just trying to look up a 'timeline' for a twin pregnancy, the big milestone dates and things. You get your big ultrasound with one child at 20 weeks, when do you get your level 2 with a twin pregnancy? Just that type of thing and I kept getting my answers all wrapped up in horrible statistics and things. Now i'm more scared than ever. I'm a little miffed at my dr's office since I have been trying to get my first ob appointment out of the way so that I can get my first appointment at MFM a little quicker, but nope. I have my first appointment on the 30th. I think that my dr's office has changed a lot since I started going there with Grace. There are more and more dr's and more patients and the waits are a lot longer. They just seem to be getting bigger and bigger and i'm starting to feel like more of just a number....I wonder how MFM will be?! I'm trying trying trying to relax about this pregnancy but ever since our nightmare with Grace's pregnancy I just can't. I guess it's something no one will ever understand until they go through it. And I hope that no one ever does.
That's all for now. Not much new to report......I can't wait until I have more pictures to post of these two little beans.....

thinking and scared

I'm just so scared about these babies. My dr told me yesterday after reviewing my history that I will need to probably prepare myself for bedrest starting around 20-26 weeks. That's so scary. I know that it would be best for the babies but it's just going to be so hard. The one good thing she said is that I have big babies so that works in my favor. I had both Grace and Ev at 38 weeks and they were 8lb3oz and 8lb13oz. I am so scared to have my babies in the NICU. I try to not think about it too much but it's just so hard not to. I guess I have to pull myself out of bed now even though I really could just sleep all day. I honestly think that if I was pregnant with twins as my first pregnancy, that we wouldn't have any more children. I'm only 7 weeks and it's been pretty rough. HOWEVER....I do feel blessed and incredibly lucky to be given this gift!

Relief....

I went to the dr today b/c I couldn't keep anything down, not even liquids these last few days. I lost some weight, which the dr wasn't too pleased about. She gave me a prescription for some meds that are safe to take and i'm giving them a shot I think. I hate to take meds while i'm pregnant at all but I can't keep dropping weight. She measured my belly and it's sooo much bigger than with a single pregnancy...and you're probably thinking, "duh"...but it's still kind of sinking in. Two babies. Two babies to physically carry. To physically give birth to. Two babies to nurse. Two more babies in addition to the ones I have. Wow am I scared. But wow am I excited! I'm scared about how i'm going to nurse two babies at once. With Grace and Evan I nursed them both for 10 months and 9 months, I even pumped when I was working with Grace. I really really really want to do the same with the twins but i'm sure it's going to be hard. I'll be a round the clock milk bar. lol! Anywho--I have another appointment the 30th, then I'll go to Maternal Fetal Medicine and probably get to see them and hear their heartbeats again! I can't wait.

Mini update..

I want to start off by saying how excited we are. We still feel like we're living in a dream! We just simply can't believe it.....now on to my neurotic thoughts and feelings. I am so sick. I have lost 6 lbs so far. I can't even keep down water at this point. I slept most of today. I am going to the dr tomorrow hopefully they can give me something to help with the vomiting. I don't know how i'm going to take care of the kids when Matt goes back to work on Thursday. I am having a large amount of stretching pain already which i'm feeling a lot on my right side. From what I understand, it's normal since you are pretty much growing at double the rate of a single pregnancy. I'm so scared about something happening to these two little beans. You hear so many horror stories, especially with twin/multiples which i'm trying not to listen to but people SAY THE DUMBEST THINGS TO ME!!! I had one person tell me that he and his wife lost twins at 14 weeks, and another person tell me that they lost one twin at 24 weeks. Why say those things to a pregnant woman? What's the point? Are you trying to make me freak out? uggggg....I guess the good thing is that I get to see these two babies a lot more often than with a single pregnancy. It's my understanding that I go to the dr every two weeks to Maternal Fetal Medicine through the second trimester and every week during the 3rd trimester. And they do an ultrasound at almost every appointment so that they can get an accurate reading on the heartbeats. And make sure that the babies are measuring ok. I just really thought that when we were trying to get pregnant this time that this pregnancy would be 'old hat' to me but I really feel like a first time Mom again. It's so much different that being pregnanct with just one baby. Hmmm...i'll post again tomorrow after my dr appointment.

TWINS!!!!

We found out today that we're having TWINS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It caught me

I thought I might be escaping 'morning sickness' with this pregnancy because i've been feeling pretty good however it caught up to me yesterday and now today! I've been barfing around the clock! (tmi, i know!) It was awful last night, luckily the kids go to sleep early so it got really bad after they were sleeping so I only had to try to take care of myself which was nice for once. It really is hard to keep up with the kids since i'm so tired. My neighbors all keep staring at my stomach and are too 'unsure' to ask if i'm pregnant. I think it's funny. I can't wait for someone to say something to me...my response will be, "WHY do I look pregnant to you?!!" hahaha...to me that will be funny. lol

If one more....

If one more person says, "You're going to be busy." In response to this pregnancy i'm going to spit on them. I'm already so sick of hearing it. I'm busy now, I know that i'm going to be busy. And anyway, the people that are telling me that either don't have kids, don't have 3 or more kids, or are so old that they can hardly remember yesterday let alone back when their respective children were young. Ug. I hate comments from people who don't have kids. They act like since they have friends who have kids, or occassionally babysit a child or know someone else who has kids that they know what it's like. Um, sorry, no you don't. I guess i'm just grouchy this morning and I posted about my pregnancy on myspace so I opened myself up for comments from people which I readily admit is my own fault but geez....would a simple congratulations just kill you???

There, I feel better now. Have a good day! Enjoy the 70 degree weather. We're going to try to!

2nd round of blood work

We had our first dr appointment on Monday and I had some bloodwork taken. I needed to repeat it 48 hours later, we had that done this morning exactly 46 hours later. My number was supposed to double in that time, well it tripled. Wow! I'm soo thrilled. The nurse said that it could mean that it's twins but somehow I doubt that. We will get to see this baby for the first time and it's beating heart next Thursday!! I'm sooo excited! It's going to be a long week wait but I wanted to wait until Matt could go also. Matt's Mom is going to watch the kids for us while we get the u/s done! I've had the dr tell me with each pregnancy that I had a 'factor' for possibly having multiples but so far it's proven not true I think this time will be the same not that we wouldn't be thrilled with twins but we're stopping at 3 if we have anything to say about it! 8 long days until the ultrasound....patience isn't my strong suit.

we told.

I told the rest of my family today about the pregnancy. We got some congrats, we got some 'oh-you're going to be busy." I'm excited about my dr appointment tomorrow even though it's going to be kind of silly. I always feel more 'officially' preggers after I go to the dr. As if you can get any more 'officially' pregnant! lol
I'm exhausted and starving since I didn't each much today...off to grab something light to eat and then go to bed so I can wake up early and clean up this disaster of a house.

Tired

I'm feeling pretty good so far. A little queasy and a lot tired but good none the less. I have my first dr appointment on Monday and I think that i'll get an ultrasound the following week or so do get an official due date. I'm anxious about getting the u/s b/c then we would be able to see the heartbeat and I would feel so much relief. Only time will tell. We really like the name Madison but it so popular that I don't think I like using it. I like the name Lily but Matt is undecided on it. Evan's party is tomorrow and I have sooo much to try and get done between now and then. I'm a little angry about the weather being rainy now since I was planning on having things outside for the kids to do but maybe i'll just put the castle bouncer inside. I still cannot believe that I look pregnant already, I mean, I know that it's just bloating but still. It's a litle upsetting. I just feel like as soon as implantation happened my body screamed, "assume the position, man your battle stations" and everything jumped into preggers mode!

The cat's out of the bag!

We wanted to not tell everyone right away with this baby...but i'm already showing which I don't understand how that's possible, but I am. I'm not real happy about it but hey, I kinda knew that it would happen. So we told Matt's parents, brothers and Grandmother yesterday. Then I told my parents last night also. Matt's family was excited...my Mom seemed stunned but whatever. I don't care. It's what we wanted. Anyone who doesn't like it can take a hike and take their opinions with them. Boo-ya.

Name Game....session#1

We were talking about names again last night. We have two top choices for a boy, Connor and Cole. We really like them both but think that we're leaning towards Connor Matthew for a boy. In regards to girls names.....we're having some issues with finding one we like. We kind of like Madison, Sarah, and Taylor. We just aren't sure. And since we're probably not going to find out the sex of this baby, we are going to have to have one chosen for each sex by the time delivery rolls around which if history repeats itself will be sometime early in the week of Thanksgiving, if my guess at my due date is right, I'll put my money on Monday November 24th. I guess Matt won't be hunting this year either. lol. Oops.

3 days

We've now known that we're pregnant for 3 days and I think that it's finally hitting me that we're having another baby and that this is our last one. We had to try for a few months to get pregnant with this baby unlike our other two that happened on the first try. I can't imagine what it feels like for the couples out there that have to try for years to get pregnant. Every month is such a dissapointment. We started trying so that this baby and Evan would be the same age apart as Grace and Evan since we love how they are spaced, but this baby and Evan will be 20 months apart, and Grace and Evan are 16 months. I know that a third child is going to make things even more challenging but i'm ready for it and can't wait to have our first Christmas as a complete family!! Now we just have to figure out when the right time to tell everyone will be. We have our first doctor appointment on Monday the 7th and I might need an ultrasound to get a good due date...so maybe after we see the heartbeat on the ultrasound we will tell everyone. Until then, this is my secret blog that i'm just using to write about everything that I can't talk to people about yet!!